"I feel the earth move under my feet, I feel the sky the tumbling down..."

Last night I had to work late. Not that I mind, at all. I actually love my job! And, I actually mean that, but last night there was this... moment. What kind of moment, you might ask. Well it was one of those moments when you're dancing through life happy about where you are and where you're headed, and then a bomb is dropped and you're faced with the question, "What are you doing? Are you kidding yourself?" Don't get me wrong, I'm not now sitting at my computer with the puzzlement of what I'm going to with my life . But in that moment, just that one moment, complete confusion and question was the only thing found on my face.

I work with students. That's my job. I got my master's to learn about how to work in this world of higher education. I took classes that only talked about the student of today. I payed attention for the most part during those classes. I studied the theories, and actually memorized some of them. Well, anyway, I had this meeting with students last night and after the meeting a few of the students decided they wanted to talk to and the other leader of the group. If I were to paraphrase the beginning of the conversation, it go something like this:

students: We want to talk to you about something.
leaders: okay
students: The games we play at the beginning of the meetings, we don't like them. We don't really want to play them anymore.
leaders: okay
(This is also the point if my life were a sitcom the camera would pan over to me and see a look of astonishment)
students: Basically the whole group feels this way. We just don't want to waste time. We would rather be told what we would learn and then start working

umm... WOW!

That's like a comedian saying "I'm not going to go through this whole joke thing, I'll just cut to the chase and tell you the punch line... Hope you get it."
To let you know, that's not where the conversation ended, the few of us continued to talk and I think we came to a good conclusion to work through for the semester, but like I said for that moment, my jaw dropped. Then later I had another with another group of students. This meeting was much different in nature with much different students. A good end to a good long day.